OCD not really explained to me. He just said that because my husband was manipulative and compulsive, etc..with the way he was treating me in our relationship and with him losing his temper with our child, that is what he diagnosed him with. He never even saw a physician. The physician put him on the Lexapro and he started acting differently and just "disappearing" and we did not know where he was for hours at a time and I called the doctor and they referred him to a psychologist telling me he had "mental problems". He also pulls the hair out on his chest and they said that was part of the OCD. The CRNP at the psychologist office with the psychologist reviewing his record, said that he had PTSD after he said he was "beaten" as a child. He also told me before he left that he felt like I had been raping him for 17 years. He never really was into intimacy very much, but "sex" is not the most important thing in a marriage and although there were squabbles of course, because I have a very high libido, I could live with that issue, the anger with my child I could not tolerate and that is why we were separated for 10 days the first time until he sought help with the counsellor.

There were financial issues also as he managed all of the money. My check went to the bank and I had no control over our money situation for the 17 years. I finally stood up when going through counselling and said I had to be a part of the finances as I worked and we had just had to file bankruptcy. He did not like this. Also, I told him I would not put up with all his "female friends". I believe that when you are married, you should not run around like a single guy and I am true blue to my husband and he did not like this either. After the Lexapro, he even went and seen an old girlfriend of his. After this he decided that he was not sure if he was in love with me, but I think this is just an excuse, as he has always told me he was never in love with this girl. I think he is afraid he will hurt me or my son and that is why he has chose to live "alone". He is looking really bad though and there is nothing I can do to help him.

I love him so much and I just know that we could work things out if he could control his anger and not treat me like he is my father and I am his child, but like husband and wife.

I was not even allowed to go to Wal-Mart and I was not even allowed to go to the mailbox. In therapy it came out to be because he did not want me to know how bad the finances are. There has been about 80,000 in credid cards spent and he cannot even tell me where it went. He says I spent it, but I have not. I have no idea what is going on. I mean I had a few credit cards here and there, but I made enough money to cover all this and then some. He told me before he left that my money had paid all the bills, so have no idea what his money went for.