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Old 01-11-2006, 02:25 AM
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There are a few of us with repressed memories of sexual abuse. The only reason I know what bits I remember are true as they were confirmed and my twin has full recall, and bro admitted it when confronted by my mom. I am assumming that is what you mean.

Now that it comes to you in a nightmare after diagnosis. That may be a bit tricky. Dreams so often symbolize what we are going through emotionally as well as recall of events. My nightmares do not always hold true to what actually happened though, most often not. I will dream of one of the times I was attacked and raped. It happens all over but in the dream I am trying to load a gun and the clip falls out. Never a gun involved in that one attack.

So it could be just as possible after being diagnosed you feel helpless as a child... Vunerable, out of control, and assulted could come to us in the dream in many different forms in the nightmare. Does not mean we won't wake up disturbed and jacked up feeling.

Not to say it isn't possible but look into that too. Because it seems like so many phases of PTSD opens up or releases so much more of pandora's box and just feels like it keeps on coming and every skeleton hidden in the closet is not happy until unveiled. Explore this to see if the new nightmares are maybe a reflection of how you currently are feeling.

I hope like hell you do not have the same shit a few of us are trying to deal with because it is a major pain in the ass and just more shit to work through when you cannot put all the pieces together. Hard to cope when you do not have the info to process readily avalible to the consious mind.

I really do not know much about repressed memories except that I have them and when they come to light I am awake and it just seems to come to me. I should read up more! I am just still trying to absorb all info on PTSD itself and have not made it that for as to how repressed memories work.

Just keep an open mind and don't be too fast to panic. I hope it is just a reflection of how you feel as it will be much easier to cope.
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