Thanks Nam. I don't have as good a support system as I would like. My psychiatrist, who I was able to do some really good work with, retired a few months ago. He and his wife (who worked with him in his office), keep in touch with me as friends, but they have moved to another part of the country as part of their retirement. I call them sometimes, but it's not the same as having someone nearby. The therapist who I did CBT with also retired from the health region, and is now in private practice, which I can't afford. I was referred to other people, a new psychiatrist and therapist, but I have issues with trust and so far haven't been able to connect with a new counselor. My family doctor just referred me to another psychiatrist who she thinks I might be able to connect with, but there is a wait of about 2 months. At least I do have my family doctor who has taken on many psychiatric patients because of the shortage of psychiatrists here. She lets me see her whenever I like (I generally see her about once a month).

As far as friends go though, I don't really have any here. My best friend, who I grew up with, is also an army brat, but she married a guy in the service, so of course she is now on another base quite far from here. We talk on the phone and chat on the internet regularly, but I haven't seen her for 3 years. She worries about me a lot and wants me to move close to them, even live on the base with them, but because of what happened I won't go anywhere near a base now.

That's it. I really have no friends here. I feel like such a loser in that department. But I don't know how to meet people anymore, and I don't know what to say when people ask me about my family. I feel like I'm different from everyone else and don't fit in. Maybe though I will read some stuff on the site that will help. I'm really hoping so.