Batgirl,

Yep that's the man. I suggest that you don't read the book at all or for a very long time. Your healing is more important than dealing with ghosts. As I said I started to read it but it saddened and distressed me all at once. You are in a bit of hard place because you have life experience as a result of decisions that were never really made by you or your father. I was going to say that he chose the end result but I wonder did it really choose him? He deserved more support than he was obviously given and you now deserve the chance to heal. Its not about your Dad anymore, its about you.

As for being different to everyone else. What's 'normal' anyway? Perhaps once you give yourself some time to heal, you will understand that not everyone is going to judge you by circumstances which were not your fault. Hopefully with the help of this community and the benefit of other experiences you can begin to heal and then form the some friendships to help ease your burden. Take care of you.