I have often questioned WHY NOW rather then before when I was in an abusive marriage, suffered many losses and traumas but seemed to get through it all, not easily but nothing like what I have now and actaully those situations I know made me stronger. I guess I feel that a person can handle only so much before you CRACK and really I thought I had. I don't understand it either, because each person has different symptoms, or gets over it quicker. With me I am not nearly as bad off as some people, yes I have the panic attacks, flashbacks, etc.... but it's still very real, not that I want to admit it most of the time. What causes it to happen WHO KNOWS, and why some people who can go through HORRIABLE TRAUMA'S and still come out emotionaly healthy NO CLUE! I am actually disgusted with myself because in so many ways I feel so much weaker than I thought I was. Did events pre accident leave me in a greater postition to get PTSD???? The doc says NO, did prior traumas make me more vulnerable to it, again the doc says NO, he pretty much says this is still a mystery.