Fairly good day, I must say. Mostly bc my husband engaged the kids, freeing up much needed time for me. I too had a great time, well with my son this afternoon. He and I played tickling games, for quite sometime. He encourages and loves this. Oh' yeah, and him and my daughter spent time writing out lists for Santa. With catologues, paper and pen in hands they set about to write a wish list knowing full well that only some gifts would hopefully be forthcoming, come X'mas. Not their fault they want anything, believe me they've been encouraged all the way from people like me and extended family. Ah' not such a good value, but I taught it anyways. And, something that has made this day especially good is that I'm not going about my days acting and pretending anymore to be calm, cool and collect like nothing bothers me, I feel nothing and you can't reach me. Doing my best to be myself and allow myself to be vulnerable...Every day vulnerable. Something I've never encouraged or invited before in my life, until I actually understood something vital from within this forum. Simply allowing myself to be vulnerable (within reason), I'll tell you is making me a lot less tired. I've been exhausting myself for too long hopelessly pretending.