hi Anthony and thank you for the welcome :)

When I was first diagnosed with depression, I was put on imipramine. 6 months and 20+ pounds later, I saw the prescribing doctor again, and told him of my weight gain. He told me basically to try and recognize real hunger from head hunger (good thing to tell someone who is already pressing 300 lbs, eh?), and prescribed it again. I then made a decision to not take any medication, but to fix the depression with therapy sessions, and learning. It wasn't until 2 years ago that I asked my primary physician for Wellbutrin. I can't really feel a difference from when I wasn't taking it and when I was, but my overall attitude with regards to recovery got a little more focused. I think that was sheer will on my part, though, more than medication.

I think back on that time and realize that if I had been properly diagnosed, I'd be a little further in my recovery than I am now. I can't blame the agency though, because I made a decision not to go back to their in-house doctor again, and was completely unaware when they hired someone else.

I had a situation a few months ago which was going to require me to go out and get a job whether I felt better or not, so Piglet, I totally sympathize with you. I got applications and everything, and then that same evening, it all triggered a panic attack and I thought I'd never be able to take a deep breath again.

I'm really looking forward to talking to others here, and helping where I can, and getting help when needed. Just knowing I'm on the right path... I can't even explain how good (and scary) that feels.. but then again, we all understand. :)