Welcome to the forum and bloody well done on surviving the past 10 years. Sometimes I am more scared of depression than I am of the nightmares/flashbacks that cause it. I think I probably do the dissociation thing a lot - maybe that's why I can work a bit - I tend to switch off the feelings and go into think mode, using logic and reason (my reason!) to work things out. End up burning out quite quickly though...

Have a wonderful meeting coming up with my manager and HR. Will probably need a long walk afterwards!

Catch you later and good luck with the new treatment package!