Thank you piglet, and good luck with your meeting! :)

I had the strangest dream this morning, and I can't help but think it was my subconscious trying to work things out. It's fragmented, but from the pieces I remember, there were two men in my home (or whatever house I was in), and they were fairly intimidating to myself and the other women there. We didn't want to ask them to leave, fearing that would trigger something bad, and were relieved when they said they were leaving and went out the door. Next thing I see is them walking past a large window, in slow motion, both men with these really big guns drawn. Everyone went in separate directions, running, and I remember my childhood friend running past me, and we were both on our cell phones dialing 911 emergency. I ended up in a closet, and clawed through a wall to a window, and managed to get free. I was the only one that escaped, however. I stopped at a gas station, and asked the attendant to call 911, then realized that I was too close to the house and they could find me so I ran.

Then, I'm reliving part of the dream again, this time going out a window, and running into a field of trees, then to a stranger's house, who immediately fled inside when she saw me running and screaming. Both times I was free. Both times, I left others behind, saving myself.

Again, I relieved the dream, and this time, it was just me and my sister in the house. Only one man was there this time, and he walked me into a room where my sister was, and told me that he had some kind of explosives strapped to him, the same exact temperature as the room, and if we tried to leave he'd blow the house up. That time, I stayed.

I'm kinda digging through all that to derrive some sort of meaning from it, but if I had to guess, I'd say that it has something to do with feeling guilty for "saving myself", and ultimately doing things that hurt me, but leave other people thinking good things about me. That could either mean that I need to start living an authentic existance, regardless to what others have to say about it, or just that I need to do whatever to save myself, in lieu of "dying" with everyone else.

Madness, I tell ya :) Gotta go get ready to meet with the doc, I'll post again later!