You guys and gals I am crying because you care. I don't cry often. don't know how to take positive comments. Or have someone back me up. Thank you all so much. I can't turn away from this forum right now Anthony. I truly need the support while life changes yet once again. I deserve so much better than what I have to suffer at the moment. Hypervigilence, self protection mode, truly wish I had just one person here I could trust. Not living this life anymore. Changes aren't permanent, change is.