Joanna, you know the questions, you know the solutions, so it is only you who can do anything about this. Alcohol is not an effective means to treat lifes stressors. You know it, and so do I, that you need to get the alcohol under control ASAP so that your thinking clearly. You need to talk about the actual issues, not attempt to drown them out with alcohol.

Joanna, only you can do this, nobody can physically force you.