Oh really, OCD? I never thought of that. Actually I don't know much about it. I always thought it was where you had to check things over and over, or wash your hands a lot. I didn't realize it could also be a fear of people.

The weirdest part for me though is, I can "turn off" my avoidance of people, at least for a couple of hours, if I really have to. For example, my doctor sent me to a therapist recently, and I didn't want this particular therapist, but my doctor insisted I see her at least once before I got referred elsewhere. Sooo... I went to the appointment, got dressed up nice (usually I'm pretty slobby) and acted completely normal, friendly, made great eye contact, like everything was fine, etc. The therapist was fooled and wrote back to my doctor saying I didn't need therapy. I got what I wanted, but afterwards I crashed, totally exhausted, and had to hide at home for a couple of days.

Anyways yeah I guess I should start doing some exposure therapy relating to people. I did do some of that with my old therapist, so I know about making hierarchy lists, the SUDS levels and so on. Lately it just seems like SO MUCH though, so I'm not sure where to start. I guess I could say hello to my landlady once in a while...