lasted 2 whole minutes and pulse hit 150 on new machine... No, I am not out of shape LOL. But getting the heart rate up triggers a panic attack as now I am shaking and feel it coming on. Very normal for me. If I do something that causes something like a symptom, just one sympotom of an attack it triggers one. Normal but will get used to it on the machine. Need to get my ass moving and blood pumping and get healtier and fit in my old clothes and dresses... at least a suit or two.


Pushed myself out of bed today and my shoulders screamed, OK, I am sure I deserve it after my hissy fit, if you can call it that minor. Baby wakes me jumping on the bed and on my tat... ouch that stung. I was not waking in the best of moods and forced myself to eat what hubs made. Had to get up as he wasn't unless I did... Grumbly and mad pissed off he can have caffinee and I cannot smelling coffee... I think I need a round bed, that way there is no "wrong side" to wake up on.

Actually feeling OK right now panic attack part aside. They are all gone to town to pick up some things. So a nice quite house except for chick chirps is really doing me some good...

Really want a nap but am fighting it so I am not stuck up all night.

I actually fell asleep last night and slept with no bad things in my head. Glad to have CDs working and about to pay the guy as I saw on his site he will make one custom to your needs and issues. About $50 but hell it is nothing compared to what I have spent on CDs and a personalized one to boot would be awesome.

I use his freebie downloads that are a little annoying in parts but work better than other stuff I have tried. I need to get a link up in info for his site since he has the downloads you can use for free. Have not bought any from him yet...