Woke up feeling quite ill. Improved. Then took a turn for the worse. A lot of very personal pain, then a series of uncontrollable threats of PTSD symptoms while out in public. Bought pack of cigg's and lost 7 straight days of smoke free style. Barely managed my way back home. Called husband. Called school to have children stay addition. 2 1/2 hrs. Called friend with PTSD and invited him over, listened and spoke in depth. When husb. arrived home he stepped in helping much. Watched some educ. program with children after supper.