Welcome John. This community is the perfect place to start your road to recovery. I hope you keep sharing your story with us and eventually find the courage to say it out loud to your parents. Especially since they are your closest physical human beings to help you in your daily activities. I am glad you have found us. There are many of us here that have been abused when we were young and still have to live with the "perp" and act like nothing has happened. It is such a strain emotionally.
I want you to know that even though we are here for you, you in turn have just helped many people by just sharing your story. It takes bravery to come out and say it.
Nam