I read that last line and thought 'Whoa! That's me!'

What you said about the moodiness, the anger, the snapping, no patience, everything being 'blurry'...and the physical and emotional pain-I understand all that because that's what I live with most of the time.

When the numbing stops and the mask of the good image is taken off, all of this junk just comes out of you. I had no idea where it was coming from or why. I honestly thought I was either losing my mind or I was going to die. I felt so, so bad when the PTSD symptoms first started.

While I hate taking meds more than you can possibly believe, they've been a blessing to me because it helps me to live a semi-normal life while learning to deal with all this sh*t. I guess I hated the way I was feeling more than the damn pills. Hmmm...never thought of it like that before.

You can rant and rave and holler here (done it a few times myself LOL) and that might help you to relieve some of the pressure that builds up during the day. I know it's helped me.

Like Nov said, you're not alone. And thanks Nov for reminding me. Positive reinforcement-ain't it great! :biggrin: