I totally understand that, Grass. I know that when I was at my worst, I would surround myself with people so I wouldn't do anything..well, stupid. And also the fact that you care so much for your mum is great. I do believe, though, that you will get better and that there will be a time when you need to make that decision to leave. I think it's best that you do leave soon. Once again, if you don't trust yourself, surround yourself with people. I hope your situation changes for the better soon......


I'm good here. It seems that the good days keep stretching out longer and longer. I do have some not so good days but it seems rare. I had a stressful few days trying to get the house ready for the appraiser and I feel that I handled the stress ok. (I did throw the mud knife and flung mud everywhere when I was doing drywall...:crazy-blu ) My husband pointed out that when I get stressed I push everyone away. I probably do. I'm not a misery wants company type person. I like to be by myself. I've even noticed that when I write on this forum, it's only when I feel pretty good. Kind of defeats the purpose, eh? I hope that you all have a great weekend. My husband and I are going to try to tackle the crowds and go shopping today. He's determined to spend over thirty dollars on a bra. His idea!!! LOL!