Ever since my time of Hell, I've had these really graphic, lifelike, horrible dreams involving some kind of death. But lately, these dreams have been cropping up for no apparent reason, and with greater frequency. Last night was about the End of Social Order, and as usual, I was wholly unprepared for it, so people died or suffered terribly.

I'm pretty sure these dreams started a few months after 9/11, and I know I was unable to properly deal with that event as I was in a long-term, stressful situation at the time that required my complete attention and mental stability. Because of what I've been through, I now subscribe to most Mormon survivalist ideologies and almost obsessively strive to establish supplies and stockpiles in case of another terrorist attack. I don't know if I'm just feeding my anxieties or taking healthy measures to make sure I never feel so helpless again, but I certainly feel better when I'm preparing for an "eventuality". I don't go into debt to buy anything, but I am almost constantly thinking about what could happen and what I would do if something went down, terrorist or otherwise.

The weird thing is, these dreams don't emotionally bother me, and I feel no anxiety during them...just a faint sense of dread when I wake up. I chalk that up to that damned emotional control I had to use during my time of Hell.

Anyhow, I was just wondering if this particular outlet is healthy, and also if these dreams will stop once I've dealt with it all. Also, what causes them to be there if there is really no trigger involved? Or am I just overlooking the trigger?