Anthony, truthfully I don't know. I just want to hole up in my cave and ignore the world.
Anxiety wise, while I have been still having a lot of panic attacks here at mums, they are no where near as bad as the ones I was having when I was alone. My brother leaves me pretty much alone, doesn't come near me, doesn't talk to me and most importantly doesn't touch me.

I will eventually leave mums, but at the moment, at the moment the stress levels are manageable.

The other day when I posted I was only just starting to deal with my grandad dying. The emotional pain that I let myself feel was enough added stress to make me loose it.
I needed to feel it, I needed to grieve. I just didn't have to like it.