Hi Terry, welcome to the forum. Wow... your entire life spent in emergency services type work, getting to see the worst humanity has to offer. I can see why you have some injuries, memories and flashbacks. Geez... good thing your wife is also within the hospital field and could help you through those bad moments. Mate, a sense of humour certainly goes a long way with PTSD... cause god knows we need it to put up with some of the shit that happens too us. If we didn't laugh at times, we would all be crazy for sure.