How do I feel? I've never done this before, so I don't know how this will turn out. The above is a pretty good start!

I feel disappointed she used her father and I's love and concern as a weapon against us.

I feel repulsion for her emotional manipulation of my family.

I feel a loss of trust that what she tells me is the truth and not something she's making up for attention.

I feel sad because I know, at first, she was hurting and needed help and that turned into her finding a way to always be the center of attention and she doesn't realize how badly she hurt her father and I.

I feel like a chump that I didn't see sooner that I was being played.

Damn, this is hard. When this started, she was 15. Logically I understand that teenagers are unaware or just don't care about other's feelings except their own or their friend's. Family feelings stop counting somewhere along the way.

During this time there was so much emotional 'stuff' going on in my life that I've found it very hard to seperate what emotion from what person. If that makes sense. I found it easier just to lump it all to gether and put it all away. Now that I'm dealing with it, the sorting out process is difficult because so many of my emotions overlap situations and people.

I do hate what she did. Because she did it to my whole family. In family, what affects one, affects all. Good, bad or indifferent. My husband tells me, 'Just let it go...it's over.' Maybe he's forgiven her. He's so much better at that than I am.

I do love her and I want to forgive her and trust her again. I know that the forgiving part is up to me and now that I have words in my mind other than anger to put to my emotions, maybe that will help me sort through things easier and forgive. I've found that forgiving someone is not an easy thing to do. And I know that trust is going to come with time and distance. There's just no getting around that.