Turned against myself and allowed some men to take from me WTF they wanted so as to end the f'n harrassment and to finally accept others belief, that had long since been shoved down my throat, and was being communicated to me over and over and over, that I was suppose to be here on this earth as an object, something to please lonely-hearts, and satisfy aggressions, and in turn I'd be forgiven for my yrs. of rebelliousness and strong conviction that I thought I was someone special, a young lady with brains, and dreams for a life and skills and Love to offer someone special. As I always thought I was suppose to have the choice in who that someone special would be.

Turned against myself and neglected myself, ie. medical conditions, gen. health, mental and emot. well-being, education, and dreams, all in order to punish myself, and be right about what I was increasingly becoming convinced of that I deserved the same shit and settling for less as FOO.

Turned on myself and ended up believing many, many of the bullsh*t lies that others seemed to struggle and fight to convince me of very early, and over all the yrs..........endless lies. Came the time that the lies I told myself and believed were enough to keep me down for good, never mind the others and all their manipulative BS.