Hello Faerie. I'm so glad you are here. As I was reading your post I kept thinking that you reactions are so much like mine. Our situations are a bit different, but our reactions are very similar. I, too, suffer from depression and I tend to either sleep a lot or not at all. During the non sleep hours, I tend to be worthless and just roam around senselessly. When I'm sleepy, I can't do anything else. It's like I'm drugged.

I did not react to my trauma until I started to remember it. This was during the most happiest times of my life. I just had two children, and I was happily married. I loved my job and just bought a new house. I felt the best I had in my life. My therapist thinks because of this stability, my mind found it time to do some "spring cleaning". With no conscious effort from me, my mind dug up all the nasty stuff and wanted me to deal with it. It was the hardest thing I ever had to go through. This was 2 1/2 years ago. I'm over the worst of it now, in fact, I've been feeling great lately. It is a long road, though. I've only been sleeping well since about five months ago and my depression is still not controlled. I tend to relapse every few months or so. I hope to be med free in a year.

One thing I do suggest is to get a diagnosis. There are many "disorders" that have the anxiety tidbit but not all people with anxiety have ptsd. Please ask your therapist directly what your diagnosis is.

Nice to meet you Faerie. I hope you stay. This forum has done wonders for me. It's nice to know that I'm not alone. This community is very supportive and caring. The people here are like family to me.

Nam