You just know I am eager to respond to some of this one... :)

A. Already discussed.

B. Already discussed

C. I am scared of moving. Me too... I hate it actually.

D. Arrr... animals, the warmth of a PTSD sufferers life.

E. More doctors. Have all your files from previous doctors, dump them upon new one's once satisfied, and tell them to read.

F. MIL will likely be helping unpack I know and setting up the home. Kerrie just had the same problems. Its a female thing I think. But, we got a person in to help unpack, and I must say it took a whole lot of stress out of moving in. Accept it for what it is veiled... help.

G. My younger son is staying with his dad. Tough one... something that is your decision.

H. Once I get out there and majority of my triggers removed will I function? I know you will...

I. Losing my best bud from my older teen years. Your not losing him, your just moving across states. Phone, Internet, video chat...

J. Trying not to feel like a failure that I am having to move to remove every possible trigger to get on an even ground. If that makes you a failure, then I must certainly already be one, as I moved in order to be removed from a constant trigger than could not be beat any time soon. I doubt either off us are failures veiled. Negative thinking... cut it out. Put a positive on it, such as... Moving means I have support, means I no longer have to visit places where my abuse occured, means I no longer have to suffer panic attacks in relation to my ex turning up on my doorstep, etc etc... More positives than I can find negatives in that one.

K. I really really hate losing my farm. Thats a cruncher... but a sacrifice worth paying for the rewards your gaining.