Mum I understand how you are feeling about your situation and although I can not tell you what you need to do I can share what goes on in my own marriage. From the onset of this DEMON PTSD, in the beggining I felt like my husband was very supportive along with everyone else in my family circle, but then in my weird way of thinking and with me being very detached from emotions of others I felt like he was thinking I should have been better by now. Arguments, desention, disgust, all were coming OUT OF ME for him, even the feeling of being spyed on because he was getting so involved in my treatment. We have had many blowups, and before we never argued, never we always had a very loving and open relationship where we could talk about anything and made sure that we kept each other grounded. NOW THAT IS ALL DIFFERENT and not with him but with me. My husband does love me, and he is not abusive at all, but because I perceive things so much differently and am not aware of how HE IS NOT THE ONE THAT HAS CHANGED, things get really intense. Just a few weeks ago we had a MAJOR conflict, and I was telling him to pack his crap and GET OUT! He did not do anything it was me. Now I am not blaming you please do not think that but what I am saying is that PTSD changes the way we see our reality and our partners can be so supportive love us and care for us even deeper then we thought but WE DO NOT ALWAYS SEE IT. I know that after this last blow up, we sat down and he expressed everything that he felt about what has happened to me, how he is not going to just up and leave me, even though I thought he would, and that how he wants to be supportive but sometimes he just does not know how to because I am not receptive to his support. Things change on a daily basis with this and just when I feel I am getting back to being an active part emtionaly in this family again the next day is seems like I am right back to square one. My therapist brought it to my attention that it is useless to spend my energy on getting people to understand what I am going through because unless they walk in my shoes they never will. She said what I need to do is start that very slow process of thinking before I speak, learning to not take every word spoken out of context, and if I have no response then leave it at that. You see my husband is a very loving and caring person but I do not see it right now I only see the negative side of things, I am sensitive to tone of voice, body language etc. and what I see in my distorted way of thinking right now is blown way out of proportion to what the reality is of what is being said and done. You need to just breath, take a few steps back from your situation and do your best to look at it in the best sense of reality that you can. IT SUCKS! See for me its just easier to blame him for everything bad I feel because then I do not have to accept the fact that I am different, I can sit in my denial of the whole situation and pretend I AM JUST THE SAME AS BEFORE, its everyone else that has the problems. So much easier doing it that way because then you do not have to work so hard to get past things. You can just walk around in a cloud of indifference. My husband is still who he always was, he is still the loving and caring person I married, still willing to stand by me for the long haul and support me even if I am the BITCH FROM HELL at times and rip his head off for trying to help me, and NO there is nothing he can do to heal me, that is up to me.