Well, I felt not too bad when I posted this mid morning. Not as the evening wears on though. I am shaking, very tired, dizzy, cotton mouth, muscle pain, pent up rage (too tired to let it out)... But the worst is as tired as I am I have such a deep seated fear of going to sleep now. Like I won't wake, I will die if I go to sleep, my throat keeps feeling like it is closing in and the such a strong sense of an impending doom. I feel so "high" like I have a buzz or had been drinking, which I haven't. I know logically why all this is so. It just does not want to get in my head this is not reasonable even though I am aware it is unreasonable fears.

Shaky night I guess you could say. Would kill for my xanax but being good and sticking with my new low dose.