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Originally Posted by anthony  Correct cass... so, go for a walk, take in some scenery, go to the strand and walk it, then by the time your done, no more wanting to cut. Find something to occupy yourself, to distract your mind from anxiety, and soon enough you do it instinctively that when panic begins, you will go and do something to stop it. |
I'm trying to Anthony, it's helping a bit. If I can't get out and walk or *something* I'll try to read or jump on the net for a bit.
I've finally started to accept that I have PTSD. I have finally accepted that what my brothers did to me was wrong, that it wasn't my fault, I also have accepted that I can't keep hurting myself, that I am transfering the guilt that I felt for their actions into a physical punishment..
It has taken a lot of me beating myself up at what I see now as sheer stupidity on my part. At least I can start to see that there is a door out of this prison that I have locked myself into.
I can heal, and I have chosen a path in life which will let me heal. I just have to persevere and remember that I can live through this. I can actually live my life and not just survive.
Proud of me? I am.