If you say you used restraint I believe you. One of the few I have grown to trust! Big step. Have the police officer ex hubs... Yeh, I know one strike can cause serious damage if intended first hand, but you know that too. I think I will be letting my diary back more "public" as I am losing some of the guilt and embarrassment now. Just have to remove my real name from the posts... Sorry guys if Anthony is the only one who get's it at the moment what I am talking about on that one.