Well, at the 10 mg prescribed a day xanax stopped working. Whole reason to pull me off addicted and no longer producing results as desired. I had to apply skills and learned to cope as valium did nothing, kloplin (sp) was bad and put me in hospital, ativan jacked with my breathing... How much dope can you take? I am out of options on the dope road. I need to find that website and post it that helped me. It was a simple site designed just for panic attacks from personal experience by just a guy and a no nonsense approach. You have to dive into your attack. I need a refresher. I could see how that site would help a lot if you have simple panic disorder. But still so helpful for slowing attacks down and stopping them with the PTSD. I cannot stop them but can stop the from cycling beyong the 10 or 15 minute attack. I see no reason I cannot again. I think my stress has just been allowed to build even if a bit out of my hands.

Well, the little siezure episodes should stop and have at this dose, I only felt one. My inlaws are gung ho at diving in to help so I should be well cared for and more important the toddler so I can come off after the move. Will hunt down a shrink on the same page as me. Also hubs will remain off work until I am settled. So the stage is set to get me off of the drug the rest of the way after the move. I can see I was pushing it too fast, been on it so long and I see the finish line. I ran too hard and tripped. I need to slow down. The makers of xanax say .5 mg cut at a time to do it safely. Also research I have read says the last cut of .5 or .25 made no difference in the final cut. So I will probably cut .25 for a week then drop the remaining .5 and that will be along the makers guide lines of keeping it safe and withdrawals minimul. So excuse me if I am a bit MIA after I move when I cut. If I am I may send "jonnylongtorso" I think that was his goofy ass name on here, to let y'all know. He said it was that or monkeyboy... I liked monkeyboy LOL.

Tonight has been long. May sound trivial to others but my dog who has been there with me for years and is about a year or two older than the normal life span for her breed... She has had labored breathing all night and if it does not settle hubs is taking her to the vet. She has been with me since my second marriage. On final #4... Anyone who knows me associates me with her, she used to go to work with me on rough days at the club and sit in my DJ booth with me. She is my baby so been worried. It never stops this whole life thing. Still searching for a pause button but it just cannot be found!

Thank you for you supporting me getting off this horrid drug that at one time was pure bliss.