Anthony, I believe cops are in the same type of club as Vets... I'm told they think "they have to keep "it" all inside or someone will think they're crazy." But that's not the case!
I was trying to get my husband to open up more to me (not be so withdrawn & isolated) & his response was "if you knew all the demons inside my head..." Then he grew silent. The thing is, I DO know some of the demons inside there (& they're not pretty ones). Over the past 10 years, they've jumped out & "introduced" themselves to me. I didn't run screaming into the night.
I just want him to lean on me when he needs to-- I don't want to know the stories for shock value, but so that I can help him as I have in the past. In former times, we went thru this together; but now I'm "locked out." I can't help if I don't know what I'm dealing with. (After 20 yrs of working in ICU/ER, I've got an iron stomach. I was working in the ER that received those victims of the propane explosion...)
Why must he be so withdrawn & unaffectionate? This never happened before. I understand everything you said-- but how can we move forward when his demeanor is as is, & I find myself feeling angry & alone? :dont-know
HELP!