Hey Beatle,

I know what you mean about not wanting to 'rock the boat'. Dealing with stuff that makes me want to find the 'erase' button in my mind has been some of the toughest shit I've been through. And when I find a calm moment, I want to hang onto it for as long as possible.

Your post title of 'still sorting thru my head'-yeah, know that one, too. Do you ever feel like, even for a moment, that you have this clarity and things line up and actually make sense and then *boom* everything goes back jumbled and you feel like you're picking fly shit out of pepper?

BTW-playing in the woods sounds pretty good right now LOL Just getting away from real life for a while.

You've helped a lot of people in your past. Take some time to help yourself. When you give everything you have to others, you have nothing left for yourself. Once your reserves are back up, I'm sure you'll figure out what you want to do.