Dazed, Anthony. I havent intoduced myself sorry getting the hang of this forum now .......
My "darling" husband started acting strange 3 years ago mood swings apathy anger then on his down time from Iraq nothing but lethargy and anger he was a shell. Family life became unbearable why did I put up with it for so long ? God only knows. I expected I would eventually recognise my Love best friend and husband in there somewhere......I started rooting in his things something I have never done (this is our 25 weding anniversary year boo ho) boy what a shock photos email addresses of not One but Two
women..... devastation "he was unhappy" "he didnt know what life held for him"........denied denied denied says it was all afantasy!!!!

well time has gone trust has gone but his guilt and shame made him angry at me!!!! get that. He didnt sleep jittery jumpy worked all hours and that was supposed to heal our marriage???? As I said Hes gone now in a place of his own temporarily he says- although I said we had to do something for the sake of our sanity he soon made arrangements.

He hasnt talked to me for a month he has agreed to meet me to have his mail. Hope I can keep my emotions under check I suggested a public place in case he winds me up. I am weak and he goes for that but getting stronger I have told him I will not be disrepected as I have done nothing wrong only react as a very hurt and dissapointed human being! I will not take his dis respect!!!!!! Help me God.

The point I am trying to make is I recognise he has no "soul" at the moment and I have lost my soulmate worse still I had lost my own soul. Life is slowly seeping back to me I joined a Leisure club and hope to meet new people I willl not "Die" because he has maimed our relationship. Itll be hard but not as hard as taking all that anger nearly killed me. Small baby steps to becoming me again not to show him but to really become me. Come with me on this adventure we might find that we like it ! who knows ????!!! Your boy deserves a strong mum and as hes doing well at school you are doing it right - boys turn into men and you are shaping his emotional future take care