Beatle, you don't need to raise a diary in order to heal yourself. You can do everything here just chatting to be honest. Time doesn't mean anything in relation to how long you have trauma, how much you have spoken about it; what counts is the reasoning and education you get in response, not just feedback in general. Trauma comes with issues, fears and anxiety, and until you can assimilate something to each of your issues, you will continue to have them. Guilt is a big one. Coming to terms with guilt is really just a big mind game, nothing more, nothing less. Its about logical reasoning. If someone is guilty of something, ie. a person did murder someone else and got PTSD from that, then the reasoning is that they must come to terms and accept they have done it, obviously served their time in prison for it, and must now learn to accept that nothing they do can change the past. Obviously there are sneaky ways in which to get a person to see these things, but how long we carry trauma has nothing to do with it, apart from you can see that it is constantly coming back, worse each time, melting you down.