I'm feeling a lot of frustration and impatience in just about everything lately. I hear people that support me tell me how much progress I've made and the only progress I can see is that the meds the doctor put me on keep me crying all the time and from feeling like I'm coming out of my skin. Other than that I feel like I'm standing still.

I feel like screaming 'HOW MUCH MORE? HOW MUCH LONGER? WHEN DOES IT JUST STOP?' Part of me wants to say to hell with it, I'll just take my life back (since no one will give it back), flush the pills down the toilet, cancel my appointments with my therapist and just say ENOUGH...I'm done.

I know patience has never been my strong suit. And control issues are at play since I feel like my life is out of my control and I'm on the sidelines watching it rather than directing it. I'm tired of turning circles and going nowhere.

Does it ever F*CKING get better??????????

I'm just so tired.