what bothers me the most ,, no can't say that ,,, my body hurts all the time ,, I know most all pain stems from accident in 75
I snapped right Tib and fib in 2 and crushed my right foot ,, It healed cruked and shorter ,,got damage to back and neck , but not real evident till later ,, nerve damage on right side from head trama ,, right eye blind { optic nerve } ,, 168 stiches put my fase back together , sleep with one eye open ,, because of short bad leg and construction and many more car wreck , have destroyed my back and neck shoulders and knees ,,,
I'm glad i'm of pain meds but somtimes when every thing hurts at once , its real hard to keep a good atitude ,,, when my head goes off and my body I don't stand to good a chance ,, I find ways to ease the mind and the body loossens a bit ,, I only resently am trying to give up carpentry ,, bin working less an less each year cause back keeps going out ,,
2001 end of september snapped left heel :drugs: while I was getting that fixed my Doc thought it would be a good time to treat my Hep-c :drugs: well 12months worth of interfearon and ribavear allmost killed me ,, and did super wreckage to my spirit ,, just this year I got back to the right wieght 145 ,, I went down to 120lbs ,, went back to work Hep-c treat ment worked ,, got back a lot of energy ,, on and of drugs and got hurt again back on drugs , till girl dummed me then took 270 milagrams of morphine ,, because of built up tolerance of drugs that just pissed me of and I threw up ,, got on fentinal and morphine , finally figured I was totally hucked and went to detox last december 5th been clean ever since ,,,, hurt back again and was down for awhile ,, got work down on back , and put a wedge back it shoe to fix the hieght and tilt to leg an foot ,,,
so shit ,,, wonder why I get triggered every once in a while ,, some times I just want to give up ,, want to find a way to be useful , but I can't even sit for any lenth of time with out having to move ,, but I know I can do somthing ,, maybe help kids learn about wood and nature ,,, big hopes there ,,
enuff of this ,,, got to move