Thank you for replying. I do not really care for my father, and it does not bother me as much as other things do. He had problems with drugs and alcohol earlier in his life so he was always a pain to be around. They were divorced since I was four. I wasnt abused before the accident, but he was always a little violent and immature. I dont want to sound mean, but him commiting suicide was a relief for me. I dont want to sound wimpy but he was a big dude, I could not defend myself. And I know many people suffer from abuse so I dont want to sound ignorant. Im sure people suffer years of abuse and I am glad it was only a year for me. I did get hospitalized though because he bashed my head into a brick wall. I am just grateful that chapter of my life is over.

I have already had several combinations of meds, and I just dont think that is going to do me much good. I am just really quiet and shy, and am very unconfortable talking about it in person. I know that it is a therapists job, and they have probably seen worse, but I just think that typing here may be a good idea for now. When I am at the therapists I just think of other things to talk about. I feel safer here where I know people can know about it without me making them unconfortable. It still is hard enough putting it on here as it is. I just cant keep it in any longer.