Hi Mystic - I just wanted to tell you that I too was abused by my adopted mother and I really admire you for getting it out. I am 35 and still find myself controlled by alternating fear and longing for the woman that was supposed to raise me as her own. In my family, my parents had children after they adopted me and all of them pretended the abuse wasn't happening - and still do. I think it is amazing that you are trying to make your relationship work out, that is a good sign. Hang in there!