Hello again.
Sorry I haven't been here much. I've spent most of my time crashing and preparing for this post-wedding thing comming up next week.
My husband and I eloped bringing only our mothers which totally offended ALL of the rest of my family so now we're doing a "big" thing for them.
They don't seem to understand this though and believe its for "us." This is very frustrating. When I say "I don't care," I'd like people to believe me.
I've been thumbing through the phone book looking at phychologist numbers but then I stare at the phone, unable to dial the number of another ******* doctor and start to hyperventalate.
I don't know if I'll ever be well enough to get help being as help is one of my major triggers.
I know councilers aren't doctors, but my best friend's mother works at a hospital as a desk receptionist and I sometimes freak out on him!
I've been near a breakdown for quite some time now and having to squeeze time in for this forum is killing me.
I'd like to just have time for me, to come here and talk.