Aaaaaaaah Shadow. I can't help you with the PTSD stuff but as for the wedding, Anthony and I eloped and didn't even invite our mothers! As I am the only girl this upset Mum a little bit but she is over it now. They will all get over it eventually. I am sorry that you feel like you have to put on a 'do' for the rest of the family. The day is meant to be about you and your partner anyway. This just adds another lot of stress to the load that you already carry. Is it too late to cancel, perhaps you could run with their plans and then just not turn up......let them have the party if they want it so bad. Sounds like you need a rest more than you need more stress. Take care.