Hey Shadow, good to hear from you again. Yes, the time thing can often be another frustration, but it can be resolved over ... time! Parodity or what? Anyway, the hard take is this... you need to start getting yourself better, because your certainly not doing anyone, including yourself, any favours by not allocating time to achieve the aim you need. This is a life threatning illness, don't be fooled by it, and you need to work on yourself to get past this. If you are going to flatout refuse to go to a counsellor because the medical field is involved with the trauma, then get your butt on here more and chat with us so we can help you get better, atleast possibly good enough to then get yourself to a counsellor for some face to face discussion without all the anxiety just getting their.

Again, don't be fooled into thinking you can just go on your merry way with PTSD untreated, because it is factually life threatning in many aspects. The impact untreated PTSD has upon our bodies is phenomonal, which is proven to increase cancers, heart attack, and many many more illnesses. You need to start being 110% serious about devoting time to fixing yourself, or you won't be around long enough to fix anything.