I thought of one other thing. It's not actually a bad thing but it's something I feel very queer about, like I'm a freak, and I've never told anyone. In fact I've lied about it on occasion. I'm still a virgin. I'm Catholic, and in highschool I was a lot more into being Catholic than I am now (now I don't even believe in God I don't think). Anyways I had signed a chastity pledge, to not have sex until I got married. Then soon after I graduated was the trauma in my family. Since then I've not made any friends, let alone gone on a date. So, I'm 25 now and still never done it.