Hi Molly, and welcome. I know its always hard to start the ball rolling, but it sounds like you are doing things. I lost my eldest brother when I was only 17 years of age, who was electricuted during work. Myself and all my brothers are electricians by trade, my father also. I cried once at my brothers funeral, and that was it. My younger years, in conjunction with my military service, has affected me in one way or another. Accepting I had PTSD was the hardest thing to deal with, off all my life so far.

The fear of going crazy is what we all suffer I think, at some point or another. Whilst I am actually typing this now, I am having a pretty bad day. Those with PTSD know what I'm talking about. My wife had to come home early to look after our bub, because when I'm like this, I'm not capable of doing much at all. Reading this from you actually made me realize something! That I need to fix myself in a hurry. Not the long term solution, but the now solution... hence, here I am.

Anxiety, depression and panic, I think everyone here knows what your talking about, as we all suffer one or all of them at points in our life. Its very positive to hear that you have taken yourself to a counsellor for help... just to get things off your chest. Maybe your a little depressed at present also, hence the lack of motivation at work. This was one of my biggest faults in my last weeks when working. I knew I wasn't doing what I had to, but I just physically and mentally couldn't achieve much at all, as I had too much on my mind. Actually, my mind pretty much runs in overdrive still.

I think your doing better than some currently, as here you are, ready to talk about the problems. Please unload and let us help you, as much as we can. Most of us here have been through similar occurances, or can relate to the symptom you have. How you get the symptoms is really irrelevant, as when you have them, we all do the same things.