Veiled, I'll get into this more later as i'm very tired and heading to bed... but for now...

It's a mind-altering chemical. nough said. Of course that would make her hallunicnate (omg I am tired..) and she wouldn't have been taking it according to perscription either!! I loved pills as a drug-popping addicted teen. This crap was right up my alley... I took handfuls at a time.. I would talk to your doctor about what it could do to her or did.. umm what else..

Trust your instincts. If you feel in your gut it was her, then it was her. Evidence points to her anyways.. diary of hallicunations? what more proof do you need.

And STOP beating yourself up. you are not superwoman. you don't have eyes attached to the kid's ass.. come on now.. the 'perfect' parent couldn't stop or control that (nevermind the denial issues 'they' have or the not my sweet baby and ignore it all together) but those of us already drugged up with PTSD? OMG, veiled. There is no way you could have caught that, nevermind, stop it. And she would have just played mind-games with you to keep you f**ked up so that you couldn't "prove" it. Trust me. I was a pro at this game...

Bec *more tomorrow*