When I was 13, I had been set up by my mom for a date with a 17yo. I lost my virginity via "date rape." I said "No" repeatedly. I fought like hell. And I cried the entire time. When I got home, I stayed in the shower 'til the hot water ran out. Then I sat in the tub for what must have been hours; but I couldn't get clean.
In the fall when I went into the 9th grade, I looked around, feeling like I didn't fit in, like somehow everybody else knew...
This is the 1st time I've told anyone.