Hannah, your emotional self certainly shows the pain you are enduring from your marriage breakdown, more being your partner up and leaving you, with little to no ability of you seeing it coming. I can see that you are trying to see the more realistic path for yourself and your children, though your emotional self is certainly still struggling to come to terms with it all. The loss of a marriage is certainly nothing fun, and creates much pain from such an event, pain in which you must get out of you, not keep within. You are doing this across the forum in parts, but maybe holding some things in still. Just remember Hannah, you are doing extremely well at present with the load within your life, the circumstancs surrounding your marriage breakdown, and the more you keep talking it all out, the more you can analyse your own self pain.

With any marriage breakdown, it does take time to put the pieces back together again. I would recommend that if your not in your own counselling, then please get some weekly counselling to help you talk face to face with someone about all current emotional pain you suffer.