Thanks wild critter,

You are right it is some relief to not feel so alone anymore. Most of my closest friends have made up their mind on the situation and do not ever want to see me with her again. I only have a couple of close friends/family who still support me wanting to be with her.

How do you get through times like this? When I visited her last weekend, our connection was there. The woman I love so dearly was there, there but a shell of her former self. She told me she was so tired, didn't know if she would ever get better. She knows how dearly I care about her.

Now I don't really know if or when I will talk to her again. I want to believe her promise that we will meet again soon. I so badly want to be part of her life. I feel that the "friends" she has now are only enabling her. They allow her to stay in bed for days at a time and take care of her. I guess I can't judge them. I just wish she was getting better help. I think right now there is just a lot of beer and cigarettes. I know she isn't excercising. She told me she thinks she is depressed.

I guess I am just so tired of feeling helpless and that I have no control over this situation. I want to call her today but feel that if I do I will only push her away. Before I went and saw her last weekend she was texting me, calling me and promptly returning all of my phonecalls. Did I screw up going to see her too soon?

I just can't stay angry at her though, she has had such a tough life, (family, etc.)

I guess I just have to be patient. Should I contact her through letters and continue to support her from a distance? I just don't know........


Has anyone seen something like this turn around?