I was adopted at the age of five FROM a bad place into a good place and I still have issues of abandonment. Many people have said to me, "You were so lucky..." Well, I had to be unlucky before I became lucky. After having my own children, I can't imagine giving up my children at the ages of five or six. It's heartwrenching to think about.

I hope that with some soul searching Elvis, you'll come to a point that it's at least bearable and can be lived with. I'm sure you have wondered what life would have been like had you stayed with your birth mom. All of that thinking is a normal process of grieving of a life not to be.

Take care.

Nam