You feel severe difficulty in life right now and feeling confused. You are trusting yet aware of problems in intimacy, and willing to put up with the discomfort of feeling depreciation, even wondering what is normal right now, though you are in denial regarding sexual intimacy. You idealistically need honesty in support systems, yet feel likely let down by your mother regarding past / present support. You are aware of being deceived, unappreciated or depreciated and hurt in committed relationships. You keep your feelings inside, for innocence and normality you likely believe.