Well. Discussing their deaths? I suppose there hasn't been a lot of discussion. If there was a discussion, I wouldn't know what to say to be honest. I'll give it a shot though.

Dad died in 1964. He had been a POW in Korea, left for Korea when mum was pregnant with me, came home when I was 3. He wasn't the best father. Struggled with keeping a job and drinking. In retrospect he may have had PTSD himself, that's another issue entirely. Drank himself to death, and on his death bed, told me I was the head of the family. I was 13, my 4 younger siblings ranging in age from 9 down to 2. Truthfully, I was disgusted with him, vowed never to be like him. However I did take his request to look after the family very serious.

Dan was killed OS, about 2 and a half years ago. We've been taking care of Colin, as his mum couldn't handle him. It's worked out well I believe.

Eric. Still don't know what to think about him. Obviously he needed help. Wasn't able to help him. Failed him and his family in that regard. Realize now there's nothing I could have done differently at the time. Would like to forget about him entirely to be quite honest. Still can't fathom what he did to his family. Suicide is one thing but taking other innocents with you, quite another. Ridiculous, but I have a bit of Evie's feeling of him still being around, his spirit at least, and striking at us from the grave. Everytime I see Evie struggling I am reminded of him, what he did to her. Everytime she tries to run or harm herself, I think of him. If Evie were to succeed in killing herself at some point, Eric would win, and it would devastate the family. She's the one thing we're hanging on to, to make sense of the whole situation, to have something good come out of it. Otherwise there's no goddamn point.

Don't know if that makes much sense. Hopefully it does. I appreciate your interest.

Jim.