Anthony, Oh yeah, the sugery has been deep in my thoughts since I found out about it (a year or so ago)
...and it's probally just that it's coming so soon that others are starting to mention it
So it's even harder to "ignore"
actually, it's impossible to not think about.
I guess that's probally why I've been feeling so quiet.
I must just be overwhelmed.

I have to make sure to set aside a time today to just analyze my feelings about it.
Hopefully it'll clear up my mood somewhat.

Was woken up early today... handling it better than expected
(aka: no freak out)
So lets see how the rest of the day plays out...